Follow Jesus to Freedom from Sexual Addiction

Read What Men Have Said

Note: These are not testimonies to this course - they are true stories emphasizing how our Lord Jesus Christ delivers men from sexual sin.

​​02/12/18 from Greg

My story or testimony started when my wife left me.  I did not see it coming.  We had a son and a daughter on the way, but she did not love me anymore.  I was a professional boxer, and the separation put an end to my career. I had to look for a steady job. I should have made God my first response but turned to alcohol and then cocaine, pornography. My anger grew.  I was also a workaholic puting in many hrs. There was no balance in my life. Finally i was arrested put in jail for selling a cocaine. 


I cried out to God in jail and found peace in His word.  With God's mighty hand the cocaine habit was kicked. I got out of jail and started a janitorial business, bought a house was remarried  to my beautiful wife Ruth. Ruth also has baggage she was an alcoholic as well, so we worked hard, drank hard. I played in my porn often. Years past until we decided to go back to church, we gave our hearts to the lord and God worked on us we prayed for freedom from the alcohol, and I also prayed for freedom from porn.

God delivered us both the same day from alcohol - thank you Jesus -  we were finally set free!  Years passed. Ruth and I were active in our church, growing spiritually. But also my struggle with porn did not go away. Ruth and I heard about a mission trip to Costa Rica and we signed up. I was working with a gentleman who, while we were talking, told me about his struggle with a certain sin and how God helped him get victory. this man was set free from porn God had this all planned out for me to meet him in the jungles of the Talamanca region of Costa Rica he got me the information of a course Setting Captives Free where i never did finish the course due to it being discontinued.

But I got to be in touch with Neill Morris who got me started in the follow Jesus to freedom course. And give God the glory  I am set free from 43 years of bondage from sexual lust and porn!

Also, I am depending on God for everything and he is doing big things in my life showing me favor. God could have saved me a lot of trouble if i would have made him my first response and not my last resort.

So now what i have learned thru all this I am telling the guys at work how god rescued me and how I didn't want the younger generation to do what I did. and yes I do warn them. Thank you Neil and thank you Claudiu for being obedient by serving guys like me who struggle with this sin.  



12/26/17

My name is Joe; as often as appropriate I write my name lowercase. I do that because I am nothing without Jesus. He took the penalty of my sin, the drinking, the vulgar language, the pride and the acting out of my lustful desires. He didn't ask for me to change first, but saved me as is. Despite my causing Him so much pain, He died for me. That truth still, so many years after first realizing it, still makes me cry. I love Jesus for taking me, warts and all and helping me to change. He is worth so much more than anything this world can offer.
    


12/06/17

Although I was brought up in a Christian home, when I was a teen, I got involved in porn and masturbation. When I moved to Nairobi at about age 20, my habitual sexual sin took on a new dimension.  It got worse. And it became a cycle – living victoriously for several months and then back into the mire. I tried everything – even found an online, Christian bible course, but I dropped out after just a short time, and fell back into my old ways. I cannot even begin to describe the depths of my sin.

In early 2011, I made a decision one night to overcome all forms of sexual sin that I had been a captive of. I personally prayed to God for forgiveness and I remembered the online bible study. So I enrolled again around May 2011.  Also I went to see my pastor to become my accountability partner. For the first time I shared my real story with someone .Within two weeks I found another accountability partner .These accountability partners helped me through my walk to purity .I must also confess I had to cut off all my past girlfriends and stopped going to night clubs .I was able to complete the course by Nov 2011.  But that is not the end of the story.

My female accountability partner eventual became my wife and we got married in March 2012 . Sadly, I admit that the sexual sin again crept into my life. Soon I was having affairs with other women. Although I was doing this in secret, my wife’s gut feelings would always tell her, and she would express the same to me that she felt I was cheating on her . She would even say she felt that I was having inappropriate relationships with some women at my office. I made a resolution to stop the cycle of sexual sin again I repented my sin to God and cut off all the links that caused me to stumble.  But did not confess my sin to my wife or to anybody to hold me accountable Each day ,I humbled myself through prayer ,reading and mediating his word, fellowshipping and fasting . Thus I was able to live victoriously for a while.

A few months later, my wife asked me about some previous incidents. It broke my heart to think of how I had hurt her.  For the next three days I confessed bit by bit of my sexual sin experiences. It was a very painful moment for her.
We decided to go see our pastor for counseling. That month was not easy for her, but I thank God that we continued to pray and fellowship together.

Both of us began a journey through that online bible ministry. She took the wife’s course, and I began the purity course once more.  Jesus did the rest.

I thank God He has enabled me resist sexual sin since 1 Jan 2013 .i have also learned how to be self-controlled and to resist the devil when temptation comes.  I have learned to live one day at a time in total dependence on God. I have realized there is no way out except total surrender to Jesus.

Only He can totally liberate a captive of any sin. Having gone through so much, I have also realized that God does not repay us according to our sins, He preserved me even when I was in deep sin.

To God be all the Glory.

Joel
 
  

11/15/17

Hi, my name is Byrne.  When I came to the course Purity Through Christ, I was struggling deeply with pornographic thoughts, self-centeredness among many other things.  As I began to look at the scriptures in the course, God began to open up my eyes to my utter hopelessness in sexual sin and my desperate need for Christ to do a supernatural work in my mind and heart.  I began to look up scripture, memorize, and even meditate on scripture throughout my work day.  I saw God do great things in my life and my work ethic even improved, due to the fact that I was no longer using the time for sexual immorality. I believe that if God can do this great thing for me, he can do the same in the life of anyone for any sin.  Although we constantly change, God's word never ever changes.  I have come to learn that I can believe God's word and trust Him with my entire life.



10/19/17
  
My name is Kirk.  Pornography is a sin I've struggled with for over 30 years.  Looking back I can clearly see that the seeds of this sin were sown when I was a teen for it was then that I was introduced to playboy magazines.  Over the years those magazines weren't enough to satisfy so my appetite progressed into videos and any other form of stimulation I could find.  What one might consider simple youthful indulgence actually turned out to be a full fledged addiction that has plagued me the majority of my earthly years. 
 
But enough about me.  Let me introduce you to the true Hero of this story.  While I wasted all those years wallowing in my secret sins little did I realize that my Savior was even then preparing my path to freedom.  In retrospect, I can now see how He stood beside me and guided me through failure after failure until I would finally reach this most glorious moment...the moment of true freedom! 
 
I had succumbed to sin so many times, each time turning my back on Him, however He never let go.  He never gave up on me.  So often I promised Him that I would never betray Him again, and there were times when I gained significant victory, yet when the temptation would grow too strong I would dive right back into my sinful ways.  Now that the scales have been lifted from my eyes I see clearly that I was trying to do it by my own strength and determination.  Hence the reason I failed. 
 
There was only one solution for victory and it was absolute surrender to Him!  I had to admit I was helpless and at rock bottom, and wouldn't you know it that is when He took control.  Completely out of the blue, accordingly to the world's logic, I received an email from "Follow Jesus to Freedom".  I had signed up for and worked through a couple online courses designed to help men overcome pornography and for a period of a time they helped.  However,  the "Follow Jesus to Freedom" was totally unsolicited.  One day I opened my email and there it was. 
 
I dare anyone to try and tell me it wasn't a divine appointment. Nevertheless, I left it sitting in my inbox while I continued my struggle.  Finally, one day I opened it and read through the email.  I thought..."okay I'll give it a try", but honestly I secretly thought it would be like the rest.  Was I ever wrong!  As I worked through the lessons I found myself totally engrossed in what they were teaching.  I began applying the lessons to my daily walk and the results were incredible.  I learned radical amputation, how to protect myself from the enemy's attacks, absolute surrender and so much more. 
 
It was clear that the Lord had laid the path for my deliverance and He was leading me each step of the way.  No longer did I crave the sin.  No longer did I feel the shame of failure.  No longer was I focused solely on me,  but rather on Him! 
 
He introduced me to this course.  He never gave up on a wretched soul like me.  He opened my eyes and heart to the path of freedom.  He paid my debt!  So all glory and honor and praise be to Him because it is by Him that I am now free!  Thank you LORD for setting me free!
 
    
My name is Kirk.  Pornography is a sin I've struggled with for over 30 years.  Looking back I can clearly see that the seeds of this sin were sown when I was a teen for it was then that I was introduced to playboy magazines.  Over the years those magazines weren't enough to satisfy so my appetite progressed into videos and any other form of stimulation I could find.  What one might consider simple youthful indulgence actually turned out to be a full fledged addiction that has plagued me the majority of my earthly years. 
 
But enough about me.  Let me introduce you to the true Hero of this story.  While I wasted all those years wallowing in my secret sins little did I realize that my Savior was even then preparing my path to freedom.  In retrospect, I can now see how He stood beside me and guided me through failure after failure until I would finally reach this most glorious moment...the moment of true freedom! 
 
I had succumbed to sin so many times, each time turning my back on Him, however He never let go.  He never gave up on me.  So often I promised Him that I would never betray Him again, and there were times when I gained significant victory, yet when the temptation would grow too strong I would dive right back into my sinful ways.  Now that the scales have been lifted from my eyes I see clearly that I was trying to do it by my own strength and determination.  Hence the reason I failed. 
 
There was only one solution for victory and it was absolute surrender to Him!  I had to admit I was helpless and at rock bottom, and wouldn't you know it that is when He took control.  Completely out of the blue, accordingly to the world's logic, I received an email from "Follow Jesus to Freedom".  I had signed up for and worked through a couple online courses designed to help men overcome pornography and for a period of a time they helped.  However,  the "Follow Jesus to Freedom" was totally unsolicited.  One day I opened my email and there it was. 
 
I dare anyone to try and tell me it wasn't a divine appointment. Nevertheless, I left it sitting in my inbox while I continued my struggle.  Finally, one day I opened it and read through the email.  I thought..."okay I'll give it a try", but honestly I secretly thought it would be like the rest.  Was I ever wrong!  As I worked through the lessons I found myself totally engrossed in what they were teaching.  I began applying the lessons to my daily walk and the results were incredible.  I learned radical amputation, how to protect myself from the enemy's attacks, absolute surrender and so much more. 
 
It was clear that the Lord had laid the path for my deliverance and He was leading me each step of the way.  No longer did I crave the sin.  No longer did I feel the shame of failure.  No longer was I focused solely on me,  but rather on Him! 
 
He introduced me to this course.  He never gave up on a wretched soul like me.  He opened my eyes and heart to the path of freedom.  He paid my debt!  So all glory and honor and praise be to Him because it is by Him that I am now free!  Thank you LORD for setting me free!   



10/16/17  From John

Hi, my name is John and I have been saved since I was 16 years old. Jesus is awesome, and He has set me free and saved me from a slew of things from my past. I was really in a dark place when Jesus found me searching for something more in life. When He saved me, He also opened the door to a bible study group that took me under their wing in youth group and I was able to grow from that experience also Jesus has worked with me to help overcome my addictions to porn as well. I am making good progress and I owe this only to Him.  
  


09/27/17  My name is Harris

When I came to this course for I needed help and I needed to find the Lord Jesus in my life again.. I am a pastor who had a lot of theological knowledge, that knows a lot of principles. yet the issue of masturbation every few weeks and occasionally watching porn let me know that something is going really wrong. I enrolled....

and from the first lessons the Lord  showed me my pride and my self-centerness. I watched God helping me humble my self and I began to learn to surrender to Him and depend on Him and not on what I thought that I knew.  It was a day by day , moment by moment pursuit of dependence on Him. This has been eye opening to me.  As He now helps me toward total surrender and dependence on Him. new desires are arising in my heart. Desires to live like Jesus, love like Jesus. To love people. I know I still have a long way to go, yet but I know now that the Lord Jesus Himself took my hand and now He is leading me where He wants me to go:  to a life of self sacrifice and a life of following Him.  I give all the glory to Him for this work in me. I thank Him also for this course, and for my encourage-guide . Thank you Lord Jesus.

 
09/20/17  My name is Rob.

I have been battling sexual be setting sin since 1988. It was then I got rid of my porno stash for the first time. It was God the Holy Spirit convicting me at that time and me submitting to Him. I never resumed a stash of porn since then however have never been able to completely leave it alone. Even with crying out to God and reading my bible, going to church etc. I would still go back to it sooner or later. Over the years I would have close fellowship with our Lord only to mangle it by retreating back to pride and selfishness.

     Enough about my sin for now.

I enrolled in a 60 day purity course here at followjesustofreedom and received a great mentor encourager guide to walk beside me and hold me accountable. Accountable not only to abstaining from the trash but with my relationship with Jesus Christ and implementing action on the biblical content of the daily lessons. I became a doer of the word of God and not just a hearer.

        This course has taught me many things  which has led to freedom. I have had a few tough days while taking the course but God has kept me from stumbling and falling by His enabling grace. His grace towards me has not been in vain.

         God has worked through this ministry and put people in my path for accountability and fellowship. I started the course lukewarm, double minded, hopeless and in despair. Today the most precious treasure I have is Christ and His freedom. I want to use that freedom now not as an opportunity for the flesh but rather to serve others.

  

From ​Claudiu.   09/19/17

As a Christian (I thought was), I was also involved in pornography. That consumed the man inside me, like a drug. For many years, I hid what I was doing, so that nobody could find out my dirty secret. My wife and my children didn't know. We all went to church every Sunday but I was living that double, dirty life.

I tried many times to get rid of pornography, but each attempt ended in failure.. I wanted freedom from sexual sin and often prayed for God's help. I tried to get rid of it, praying, fasting, reading some books, etc. Nothing helped. But then I heard about a ministry called, :"Follow Jesus to Freedom."  Their course’s biblical teachings and their encourager-guides helped me to find the way out of it.

“The Way” had been there all the time -  Jesus is The Way, the answer! He can free any man who is chained in pornography!  I fell down before God, surrendering my whole life to Him; not just part, but ALL, allowing Him to set me free.

And God has freed me. My debt is paid - the chains are gone.

Before the course, I didn't want to confess my sin to my wife because I was afraid of divorce.  But I asked God to handle my problem. He did.  Now I have confessed to my wife all my sins.  She did not leave me, but instead, she forgave me and helped in this spiritual battle.

God is with me every day to give me strength to walk in purity. I can't do it alone but He is The Lord of Hosts and fights for me!  He is Great! That evil has no more power over me. It has been more than 60 days since God has freed me, and I can walk in purity.

He can set anyone Free!  


September 12, 2017 From Jeff   

I made wrong and wicked choices for many years of my life and chose to walk in the opposite direction of what I knew was right. God was able all this time to provide what my soul needed, but I was unwilling to consistently and completely surrender all.
 
A friend frequently reminds me that: "Jeff, you are no longer that man." And it's true! God is able to restore and give me a surrendered heart. He is changing me from an immoral, self-centered man to one who desires to be HIS for the rest of my life. I have a long way to go, but I know God will continue to work in me. He has been kind. He has been faithful. "Thou hast redeemed my life." (Lamentations 3:58b). This is what God has done for me.
 
  

September 6, 2017 - Bob writes...

Temptation which used to rule my life because I would yield to temptation, does not rule my life any longer. Christ's Love and Christ's Cross rule my life. Change happened in my life from within the depths of my own sin: I met Christ in my sin because He was not too 'holy' to come into my sin. I met Christ when I was chatting in a homosexual chat room where a man began talking earnestly and honestly to me about Jesus. As Jesus revealed Himself to me I could not deny the hope, the love and the power of His Word as the Spirit of Jesus spoke right into my life. I know that most men don't meet Christ as I did right in the filth of sin. However, I know that Christ is everywhere. Christ is in every man's life loving that man, calling him and showing him a way out of sin. There is no condemnation to those who are in Jesus Christ. 


August 16, 2017  Mihai writes -

I am writing this to testify the work Jesus Christ has begun in me through this course I have taken. Through the Holy Spirit, He convicted me that the bondage to lust, pornography and masturbation is actually a bondage to self. I have been too focused and too centered on my needs, my desires, my pleasures, my everything. And this selfishness has been leading me to sexual sinning.

But the Christian life should be a life focused on Jesus Christ, on His will for my life and on His commandment to love others and to serve them, as He did for me on the cross. With this conviction I am praying that the Holy Spirit will help me surrender to Him and start living in His grace a life of serving God and others, and not myself. It is only by Him I can do that, and not in my own efforts. 

My story starts with homo(bi)sexuality. It all seems sort of far way from me now (though there is still temptation in my life i.e. homosexual as well as heterosexual temptation.) I have learned that temptation is not sin; sin is when a man chooses for that which is wrong instead of choosing for that which is right i.e.choosing for sin instead of choosing for holiness. Though I have temptations, there are still times that I teeter on the edge of sin...BUT.. I know that Jesus in my power, my life, my love and then I back away from the edge of sin. The more I learned about Jesus, the more I love Jesus; the more I have grown to love Jesus, the more I have wanted to live for Him; the more I have learned to live for Jesus, the more I have felt His Spirit at work in me and changing me.

When a man chooses for Jesus, then Jesus is stronger than sin. Sin is always a choice every bit as much as it is a choice to choose for Jesus. Jesus chose to love me and now I want to choose Him because of His love for me. I have learned to 'accept' myself as I am (with all my weaknesses and human failings) because I know that Christ accepts me as I am and I know that God loves me. If Jesus did not ever reject me how then can I reject the One who loved me even in my sins. Jesus left His own oneness with the Father and came to this earth precisely because of man's sins i.e. because of my sins as well. We need Jesus. I need Jesus. He came (He comes) to each of us precisely because of our need. We are weak and He is our spiritual strength as well as our real strength. Christ did not come with any 'holier than thou' attitude or with any haughtiness-of-being that He is one with the Godhead; Christ became a man like me and like you; Christ lived with us (lives with us) right in the muck and the mire of our human life i.e. of my life. Jesus loved me and He loves me still. His Love is my reason and motivation to honour Him and to glorify Him with my life, with my choices and with my body.


  
 We have withheld this next man's name
to protect his family. But his testimony to the grace of Christ is powerful!
  
I began masturbating at the age of 12 and was  hooked immediately.  I masturbated compulsively, daily for more reasons, but primarily escape.  Early on I discovered that while pornography was very  stimulating, fanaticizing seemed more satisfying.  So, from a very early age I learned to train my mind  and my body to live for these fantasies.  Everywhere  I went I looked for glimpses of images, or whatever  I could find to build a fantasy around later on that  day.
     
By the time I hit my mid-20’s, I had been  overpowered by my addiction.  I was masturbating at  least twice a day, and my fantasies had evolved in a  bad way.  It wasn’t too much longer that the  fantasies weren’t enough, and I began so seek  stimulation in a physical way.  Unfortunately, the
 subject  of my fantasies had nearly always been  young girls, and by the time I realized the problem,  it was too late.  I had already become a monster,  and I felt like there was no way I could be cured.
     
Then, just before my 34th birthday, my wife got  fed up with my depravity and threw me out of the  house.  It was at this point that I realized my
 addiction had cost me two wives, seven children and  twenty-two years of my life.  I determined that, God  help me, it would cost me no more.  I cried out to  God, and He directed me to an online Christian ministry with an interactive bible course for men like me.

Let me tell you that right away I knew I was in the right place.  Within the first few lessons, I could see that the course's ruthless methods of handling  P&M, attacking it from every angle with scripture, were the only way to freedom.  The testimonies I read let me see that there were others like me being freed from this bondage, yet I was still struggling and falling.  The Lord used the course and its scripture-based teachings, devotionals and testimonies  to soften and eventually break my stone-hardened heart.
     
It was at this point that, alone in my living room one night, my eyes were opened, the Light shined in and I realized the full weight of my sins.   I hit my knees, fell on my face and cried out to  God in repentance.  There is nothing quite so amazing as when the Lord forgives you.  And it was through that forgiveness that I got the strength to confess the crimes that resulted from my sin.
     
I am now in jail awaiting the judge’s decision.   At this point, it doesn’t matter to me whether I get a life sentence or a pardon, because no matter
 where I am, I am free from that foul pit of sin.  God has truly been gracious to me, an undeserving sinner.  And I am thankful to be living in His
 Light, serving His will, for the rest of my life – A FREE MAN.  

---------------  We can tell you this much about what has transpired since.  This man received a long prison sentence.  But he is doing well and serving Christ in prison.  And he holds to this encouragement in Paul's letter to the Philippians: 

I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.

  
 We have withheld this man's name to protect his family. But his testimony to the grace of Christ is powerful!
  
I began masturbating at the age of 12 and was  hooked immediately.  I masturbated compulsively, daily for more reasons, but primarily escape.  Early on I discovered that while pornography was very  stimulating, fanaticizing seemed more satisfying.  So, from a very early age I learned to train my mind  and my body to live for these fantasies.  Everywhere  I went I looked for glimpses of images, or whatever  I could find to build a fantasy around later on that  day.
     
By the time I hit my mid-20’s, I had been  overpowered by my addiction.  I was masturbating at  least twice a day, and my fantasies had evolved in a  bad way.  It wasn’t too much longer that the  fantasies weren’t enough, and I began so seek  stimulation in a physical way.  Unfortunately, the
 subject  of my fantasies had nearly always been  young girls, and by the time I realized the problem,  it was too late.  I had already become a monster,  and I felt like there was no way I could be cured.
     
Then, just before my 34th birthday, my wife got  fed up with my depravity and threw me out of the  house.  It was at this point that I realized my
 addiction had cost me two wives, seven children and  twenty-two years of my life.  I determined that, God  help me, it would cost me no more.  I cried out to  God, and He directed me to an online Christian ministry with an interactive bible course for men like me.

Let me tell you that right away I knew I was in the right place.  Within the first few lessons, I could see that the course's ruthless methods of handling  P&M, attacking it from every angle with scripture, were the only way to freedom.  The testimonies I read let me see that there were others like me being freed from this bondage, yet I was still struggling and falling.  The Lord used the course and its scripture-based teachings, devotionals and testimonies  to soften and eventually break my stone-hardened heart.
     
It was at this point that, alone in my living room one night, my eyes were opened, the Light shined in and I realized the full weight of my sins.   I hit my knees, fell on my face and cried out to  God in repentance.  There is nothing quite so amazing as when the Lord forgives you.  And it was through that forgiveness that I got the strength to confess the crimes that resulted from my sin.
     
I am now in jail awaiting the judge’s decision.   At this point, it doesn’t matter to me whether I get a life sentence or a pardon, because no matter
 where I am, I am free from that foul pit of sin.  God has truly been gracious to me, an undeserving sinner.  And I am thankful to be living in His
 Light, serving His will, for the rest of my life – A FREE MAN.  

---------------  We can tell you this much about what has transpired since.  This man received a long prison sentence.  But he is doing well and serving Christ in prison.  And he holds to this encouragement in Paul's letter to the Philippians: 

I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.


Another graduate, who's wife prayed so hard for him, says...


God heard her desperate prayer, and God used the unbearable weight of my years and years of enslavement to shameful pornography and immoral behavior to push me to my knees. With a feeling of total helplessness, I begged God to help me and forgive me. I opened my Bible, and decided to go to Psalm 32, because of a song I heard taken from this Psalm. I read about David saying: “I acknowledged my sin to you, and my iniquity I did not hide, I said I will confess my transgression to the Lord, and you forgave the guilt of my sin.” I cried out (literally sobbed) to God in sincerity to please forgive me for being a sinner. I also read in my Bible how Jesus paid the price for my sin, and I said to God, “I am helpless to overcome my enslavement to porn and immorality, but I know that I want you more, so please lead me to freedom and a true faithful relationship with you, even though I do not deserve it!” Shortly after this prayer, God led me to the interactive online bible course. I can now say after 35 years of slavery, that I have now truly been set free, thanks to God’s mercy and grace, my wife’s prayer, and the 60 day Bible study course. I now only crave my relationship with Jesus.

If considering this course, please know that I have prayed that you will be set free as I have been, and also know that God through the power of His word, as taught in this course will deliver you also. God bless you! 

   
From Christian -       it is notable that Christian enrolled as "Fred"  But as our Lord worked in his heart to set him free, he confessed his first name, and once again could proclaim Christ without shame! 

Hi, thank you for taking the time to read how God saved me out of the traps of lust. I discovered how to gratify my flesh by touching myself as a pre-teen boy. My mothers glamour magazines and the advertisement in them provided more fuel for that kind of lust for as long as I lived at home and sometimes I bought a Playboy magazine. I kept that a secret, but later there was not much encouragement to restrain sexual activity either. So eventually I ended up in a series of pre-marital relationships, even with a prostitute at one point.

After wrestling with belief and faith in Jesus for about a year I became a Christian when I was 25. My girlfriend too and we married a month later. At that time I knew that it was wrong to touch and satisfy myself, but I kept doing it every once in a while. At one point we got AOL and the internet, and even though the picture quality was bad and in black and white, the bait was set and I walked right into a trap which I would not be able to escape for the next fourteen years. Although there had been a few periods in which I had been able to overcome temptation in this area, eventually I always fell again. In 2004 I prayed and fasted in the beginning of the year and was able to stay away from images on the internet and sexual impurity for the first seven months. But then I fell again and there seemed to be no end in sight. I finally admitted to myself that I was addicted and started to cry out to Jesus for help.

In January 2005 I went to a men’s retreat with another church and about a hundred men. There was much prayer for deliverance there and I was really touched. In the last session the pastor had a word that there were two more men whom the Lord wanted to set free from an addiction. I knew the Lord was calling me, but I was too proud to go and admit an addiction before the younger men that had come from our church. A couple of days after coming back from the retreat I found myself again in front of the computer staring at images of women I had no business looking at. I got sick of myself and started to look for books to help with addiction to porn. One book review on Amazon mentioned an online bible course for men like me, that it was free and that it had indeed worked for the man recommending the book. So I went to check it out. The moment I started reading on the website, I knew that this was the way the Lord was showing me that I could finally be free.

I was very excited and enrolled in the course and started with day one. The first couple of days were challenging, because they really made me look at how much I trusted Christ. I realized how much of my love and trust in Him had been eroded and destroyed by that addiction. It was painful, but also bringing lots of hope, somewhat like when a malignant tumor is being cut out with minimum anesthesia. While enrolled in the course my love for Jesus increased more and more. I quickly felt like I was born-again — again. Again and again I was surprised by the wisdom in each lesson and how perfectly it was timed. Thanks also to the makers of SafeEyes for a great and very affordable porn blocking product. Even though I had a setback while enrolled in the course, I repeated some of the lessons and now I have been free for more than two months! Thank you Jesus! Life without porn and lust is so much better! It is much more fun to live in the presence of my Lord and to worship Him with a clear conscience. It is a warped understanding of grace and an ugly lie to think that one can live for Jesus, and yet be involved in porn and sexual immorality. Purity is liberating and the Way of the Lord! All honor and glory and praise to my Lord Jesus for setting me free indeed!